I think ahead and had every intention of staying on the diet. I ordered the books that even PointsPlus for values list almost anything you can think of. And a special journal to capture that PointsPlus values. After all, I had used this pencil-and-paper method years and years ago. In fact, was the first time I went to Weight Watchers, there is no online version.
The snowball effect then went in full effect.
It started innocently enough: someone offered me popcorn at a movie. I have a soft spot for popcorn. And movies. And one without the other only makes me feel a bit sad. So, I gave in.
I tried to "good" and measure by handful, but when I reached for, what was probably the third or fourth, I myself convinced that I had lost a favorable count and I said out loud, "what the heck, I will not worry about PointsPlus values today."
For some reason that I have yet to discover, sit on my computer and typing in all those foods and beverages and their values See on my screen made it "real" to me, it made me feel that I absolutely had to be accountable. For some reason, go off line causes a kind of disconnect and I lost my discipline full: that one slip-up suddenly became my license to eat with wild abandon.
Old habits came back really fast. I don't even remember have a second thought about that coffee drinking I had later that day. With whip? Why, Yes, of course. And then it was an order of fries at dinner instead of vegetables. And, gosh, I was so tired of diet soda; only one ice tea wouldn't hurt, right? And then the next day happened. And another. And they were all filled with bad choices and empty magazine pages.
After all, I was on vacation!
Well, my vacation of my diet has lasted nearly three weeks. I have been every Sunday to promise to come down Monday, but I didn't. In the first three months of my review I lost a little over 20 pounds; in a few weeks, I have already gained back two of them. I can see the way this is headed and that snowball effect is going to happen to the scale really fast, too.
I think it is time for accountability for my holiday.
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